"To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven." (Ecc. 3:1)
Tonight as I was cleaning out some papers, I came across a folder with a job description in it. Now, over the past three years I have printed out A LOT of job descriptions in preparation for interviews I've had. This one, though, is particularly special. It's for a job I interviewed for a year ago.
The job was for an opening with Deseret Digital Media. I had two interviews. I felt really good about it. I really thought I was going to get the job. But, I was crushed when I learned that they had given it to an internal candidate. I moved on, but honestly, that job was still in the back of my mind.
Fast forward to this past December. I saw the job posted again. I was so excited! I was determined. I wanted that job! I had my roommate forward my resume on to someone who knew someone. Within a few days, as I was sitting at work, I got a text from the person I had interviewed with a year ago. He wanted to talk to me right then. Ahh! I went out to my car and we had a good phone chat. He remembered me.
I had a couple of in person interviews after that. There was some time in between all of these and it was KILLING me. I prayed SO hard for this job. I had an ARMY of people praying for me, too. One day before one of the interviews, as I was sitting at my desk, I had the thought - "bring donuts to the interview." It was the funniest thing. But, I totally did it. And the team I interviewed with loved it. So, when I say I did all I possibly could to get this job - I really mean it.
The night before I was to find out if I got the job, I struggled. I was so done. I just felt like I couldn't do it any more. I couldn't handle one more rejection and one more day at my current job. I received a priesthood blessing that night and that brought me a ton of peace.
The next day I got the amazing news that I got the job. It is such an incredible blessing for which I am so, so grateful.
The past three years have been very challenging. I was prompted to move back to Utah and I guess I thought things would just fall into place. But, they didn't. But, I remember when I felt prompted to move back, I had the thought that it was so I could "grow." I must say, I have definitely grown.
God has His time. Rejection and after rejection, I wondered what was wrong with me. I wondered why I stunk at interviews. But, honestly, somewhere in the middle of my job hunt, I really felt that it wasn't me - it was God's time. I do know that's true. When we do the very best we can, He makes up the difference and He makes things happen in His time.
A few years ago as I was driving home from work in Arizona, I heard a song that I've come to love - "In God's Time," by Randy Houser (go look it up). Some of the lyrics I love:
Oh, but no one knows
Not you or me
It might be tomorrow or it might never be
Oh, but don't lose faith
Put it in His hands
'Cause it might be that He might have a bigger plan
Than you had in mind
Miracles happen
In God's time
Miracles DO happen in God's time. For whatever reason, this job wasn't right a year ago, but now it is. I SO look forward to the future. There is happiness ahead.
There are a lot of things I don't know. But, I do know God is real. He's there. He cares. He wants to bless us. Sometimes He makes us wait A LONG time (I'm still still waiting on that certain blessing ;)
I'm extremely grateful to all of the people who reached out to me in kindness during my trial of job hunting. It has been so humbling. It has made me want to be kinder and more thoughtful. And, I truly believe (and hope) that one day I'll use this experience and what I've learned to help others.
God is good. The best is yet to come.
